Broken reality

This article is of the shocked and disturbed writer and activist whose sense of identity was in some sense shaken or changed by Trump’s election.

It Can Happen Here. (In Fact, It Did.)
By Tom Engelhardt


My Comment into the theme:
Elected or selected?
Considering that big financial crashes take MOST by surprise doesn’t mean they are not in some way orchestrated by insider insiders.
IF a higher but malign intelligence was devoted to the manipulation and deceit of others into succumbing to an agenda of domestication and powerlessness relative to the controlling force – then it would operate through the self-specialness of a false sense of freedom, power and protection – because these are the blind-spots of an inner conflictedness of which most are unaware of being subject to – because the whole point of a mind-in-deceit is to render such negatives unconscious by denial, by projection onto others, re re-normalising or redefining learned conditioning as concrete conditions.

The good news… is that anyone or anything that hacks into your own thought to subvert you from a core honesty to a narrative control – is also providing the illumination of your own ‘back-door’ correspondences or resonances via which hate and guilt thinking mask as righteousness and hide one’s own (often unconscious) participation.

So if our ‘reality’ or indeed ‘identity’ is broken – there is a real CHOICE as to whether to identify with victim and persist in the same underlying demand to CHANGE others or external conditions so as to ‘restore’ what has been ‘taken’ from or denied you. OR to abandon what clearly did not and does not really work and look within – which is not ‘more of the same thinking’, but the void or opening to a receptive willingness for a true foundation that is NOT a mind of deceit.

The temptation to self-righteousness is judging others for our own un-owned ‘sins – that speak of hurt and hate that we all know, regardless our different experiences and strategies of survival.

The personae level is diversionary and dissociating distraction – that the ‘judge’ believes themselves apart from and above – as an ‘exception’ to the faults and failures of ‘others’.

We each and all act out from the ideas, beliefs and definitions that we are in some sense conditioned to react thus – and any real ‘progress’ has to pause from going forward, to NOTICE the ‘choices’ that are operating by reaction – and discerning if and to what degree any of that programming is true of me now – in this situation – and in this situation… because each situation is unique and needs attention to its full communication – or else we operate blind in reaction to what we don’t want – as if that is doing what we truly want – which it CANNOT be. As long as we are in effect defined by ‘evils’ we are displaced from recognizing and sharing in the ‘Good’ – of a quality of wholeness of being – rather than defining ‘good’ in terms of falsely framed ‘powers, protections or self-specialness’.

The alt media focuses on the ‘THEM’ who are presumed powerful and expert at deceiving and controlling ‘US’ or at least the other ‘THEM’ called sheep or stupid,
IF one can release personal investment in guilt – curiosity can be applied to HOW it is that I perceive, experience and act as I do (and thus gain insight on what operates in us all).

The intent to define, predict and control others is only looking for psychological ammunition or masking techniques because it is a ‘war-mind’. An awakened desire for sanity, peace and healing operates a different purpose – looking for ways to undo or become free of fear driven dictates and distortions – so as to participate in a genuinely felt quality of being – that gives true witness because that is its own desire to see truly.

I sense an opportunity for the ‘shocked’ and ‘disturbed’ to look within – as a self-honesty of acknowledging and owning where we are at – rather than believing our own spin and presentation. Not for better ammo and armour – but for the movement of being in which we know our being – rather than a ‘thinking’ that overlays and usurps true function – which is aptly pointed to by the phrase ‘know thyself’ – with a substitution of masked persona in fragmented conflict – defended and protected against awakening to the reality that it operates upon the denial of.

In fact the LAST thing one will do is look within – when every other ‘choice’ has been revealed fruitless – and no one can do this FOR another – but we can honour another as our self from a point of accepted worth within ourself – and this can communicate conditions in which to draw a different response – but not as a strategy of changing others. That kind of bullshit can always be discerned at some level. But is anyone listening within?

Broken reality


The Alliance for Natural Health; ANH – works internationally to promote and educate people and institutions regarding health issues – particularly within a regulatory capture and media capture to an almost exclusively pharmaceutical intervensionism and overriding of and even wilful ignorance of natural relationships.

Anyway their periodic newsletter arrived with an article on detoxification – which is being targeted with negative association in the mainstream media – who are increasingly evident as corporate lackeys.

I wrote into the comments:

Discern and nurture the natural desire of Life – rather than be-guiled by the unnatural invalidation of guilt.

In short watch out for the belief that YOU are toxic, unfit and unworthy of Life – for a negatively defined sense of self can only result in negative outcomes.

The ‘mind’ of a self-judging guilt SEEMS to be the power to motivate as an overriding of resistance – driven by carrot and stick incentives that reinforce and condition the ‘mind’ as the overriding definer and controller of you – and of your Life.

Honesty of being is a different foundation than ‘narrative control’. But the ‘mind’ of such control is a conditioning that runs a blind default unless there is a re-integration and reconnection of pre sense – or awakening prior to the mind of reaction as the capacity to feel and know within a wholeness of being – rather than within the dictates of our – mostly unconscious – conditioned beliefs.

Health is ALSO your current consciousness experience – as a wholeness of being within which we know our selves in reflection and shared communication – yet can also lose sight of our peace in a sense of conflicted self that triggers ‘mind’ as the attempt to escape the conflict without resolving it. This covering over of symptom is the ‘mind’ of diversion and indeed denial via all kinds of psychological device including to dumping of psychic-emotional guilt onto Body and indeed anywhere AWAY from a sense of self-survival that then seeks its ‘salvation’ or fulfilment in external terms – which never really arrives because one has to BE the quality that the outer situation symbolizes – or else the form of success simply serves the game of carrot and stick.

Toxic thinking is guilt-based thinking – for fear can be brought to awareness and transformed or undone – but guilt undermines and invalidates and forbids healing.

A true sense of worthy extends automatically to others – so relating to this in others is a way to KEEP it and keep toxic invalidations from taking hold in – and substituting for our true mind. Because the capacity to think and fell and know and choose is our Life – as we accept and share it – by being ourselves – rather than be-guiled into trying to be what we are not and then feeling invalidated by a falsely framed expectation of self, life and each other.


Enemy Within?

As a result of listening to Chris Hedges on youtube interviews I followed to this page below – and  commented into its theme – and that of the commenting community there.

The Real Enemy Is Within
By Chris Hedges

My Contribution:

Fighting effect-symptoms can only persist the hidden cause – or to put it another way – they can only persist in hiding the cause.
Assigning ‘Cause’ to symptoms denies true Cause and is therefore persisting a false foundation that replicates and reinforces itself by symptom-interpretations accepted as meaning – or true currency.
“The lie and the father of the lie” operate a sense of self by deceit – as wishful or magical thinking given power of acceptance as true.
Awakening from a mind or reaction is noticing the mind in act – and this alignment of presence is already a shift to a perspective of creative or free choice, in place of a fearfully defined or conditioned dictate.
One of the core deceits by which deceit itself is kept hidden is that of focussing exclusively ‘without’ and substitution of ‘within’ by emotion-backed thinking that is recognizably ‘narrative control’ – even if couching itself in self-righteous’ justifications.
Stories operate the mind of the ‘ego’ – and manipulators of others no less become suckers for their own story spin. Identity is invested such that conflict, sickness, isolation, insanity and death may be chosen and accepted rather than yield up one’s story to a deeper honesty of being.
Taking an ‘Image’ of reality as self in symbol and concept is a specific FOCUS through which Wholeness is effectively dissociated from – and instead experienced as fragmentation and the seeking of restoration from within a sense of love and power lost. Separation trauma accesses extreme polarisations of ‘survival urge’ in association with asserted partiality and self-rejection.

I reach here to articulate something PRIOR to the world as we mostly, accept and believe, suffer and participate in. At that prior noticing – there are not words, concepts, images and symbols – but rather a direct communication or relationship of being that can recognize within Itself, that which is resonant and relevant to the true movement or desire within being.
The currency of meanings – of our thinking – is no less corrupted that its reflection in ‘money’ or ‘culture’. But this cannot be communicated EXCEPTING from a stirring or resonant reflection within.
The ‘story’ of conquest, domination and possession is writ LARGE upon the screen of our ‘reality experience’. But focusing exclusively upon the fruits will never expose the falsity of the roots – and that is its core protection and why conflict, war and sickness as diversion operate to guilt and terrorize a mind to WANT to ‘see’ its enemy WITHOUT in belief the enemy within is it own damnation or annihilation. This belief is love’s denial – regardless the substitutes or sacrifices brought to mitigate the act. The self born of such denial-belief CANNOT know love – or what it therefore DOES. But the resonance of the intuition of love WITHIN is of your true being – and witnesses love – and therefore to an integrative quality of being that is uncovered in place of segregative identifications that are now seen as not serving you or aligned with or meaningful to accept and act forth from.

Who seeks love or power WITHOUT – hides hatred within. But don’t use that first step as conclusion of guilt. Challenge any thinking that invalidates the movement of curiosity and desire within you. A mind cannot be trapped in its own thinking – but by its own consent. If incoherent reality-experience does not lead to the transformation of ‘your mind’ – then you are living a choice for pain rather than uncover the belief that demands it be true of you.

Enemy Within?

Old Life, New Life

In Response to:
Old life, new life: entrances and exits
by Jon Rappoport

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The ‘past’ works a memory complex as an overlay present that covers over presence. Choices are actions that by repetition become ‘habits’ as IF autonomous. Persisting the choice of habit, sacrifices life of true presence in favour of an oppositional habit of an acquired ‘second nature’.
Presence may be covered over and reaction to ‘past’ conditioning may misperceive Everything – yet what is here is all that is here – while what the mind interprets is a current ‘choice’ running blind as default.

The attempt to escape the past is the act that makes it real in the mind so made, and by setting the past as the frame of meaning for what is now, does the identity of attempt to wield power over life, disempower under illusion of a fearfully defined conflicted self.

Maintaining a presentation masks true intent. Masked off minds agree to differ and make collectively reinforced illusion of a fearfully defined matrix of ‘meanings’.

The old life was who you thought and believed yourself to be, and the unfolding anew is who you release from such framed thinking to un-cover the being of. But one cannot change a choice that one is unaware of making – and kept so by the attempt to effect power over life as a self-segregating ‘mind’.

The power that Is life has a redeeming quality to salvage true blessing from a past made in anger and thus translate and transform the basis for separation of withheld identity, into an recognition of presence – as a direct appreciation.

The power to make meanings for your self alone is different from the power to receive inspiration and reflection to who you uniquely are – and are unfolding the expansion of appreciation as.

Focusing in what you don’t want as if you do want it – is a result of running a past that you can never arrive in or be – so as to never re-experience the fear that split the mind into dissociation. Yet this is the way to keep a denied past forever unhealed and active – over your own experience and communication.

The release of the past is of an unconditional acceptance for that you are – within which presence the past is NOT – unless you choose to bring it with you. This is a choice. This is where you are free to choose NOT to come from what no longer feels aligned with who you know and feel and prefer to be. Into the space made available, the movement of your being registers with you – AS you.

Or persist in self-rejection howsoever ‘creatively’ masked by assertion that freedom lies in opposition and defiance. Yet who can be defined by the hated and know the love that is their own being? Wish-denial, anger and hate are tantrums of perceptual self-specialness that deny the exploration, freedom and sharing of who you uniquely Are. Blame is anathema to true perception. Blame is the curse of a past made real in a mind that ‘loved’ to hate.

If you ‘deal’ in hate-thinking – there’s your choice – and your reality… as requested. If your ‘reality’ is not coherent to who you feel and know yourself to be, then what would you have to be defining yourself and this situation to be  to attract such experience to you?

Watching the mind ‘in act’ is an awakened perspective of desire and curiosity – and the shifting to a more aligned path of choice is the gift of an untrammelled imagination – for imagination under fear and blame is defended against – excepting in ‘justified retaliation’.

I appreciated writing this as a guided morning meditation. There’s presence ‘within’ the carrier of the forms of the communication. Always new and never by rote.

Old Life, New Life

Vaccine Religion

In response to Jon Rappoport on Vaccine news the mainstream wont publish

Pseudo religion or magical belief, operates a sense of power over or against judged ‘evils’. Jon focuses on exposing or countering ‘power-priesthoods’ but the doing so may give reinforcement to powerlessness.

Manipulative intent can only leverage fears and guilts already active within our own (and our cultural or collective) self-beliefs – albeit mostly in ways that are rendered ‘unconscious’ – and defended against exposure by every kind of device.

The underlying psychic and emotional beliefs of a fearfully defined sense of self. life and world, are not resolved or corrected (healed) by displacement  onto physical manipulations. But the belief and wish for the power to do so, gives power to external agencies while undermining one’s own core sense of being.

Choosing to persist in a false sense of being must use coercion and deceit to maintain itself – and this can only generate a dissonance of being, with a sense of disconnect or separation from the feeling of being – which is infinitely rich as the core qualities of existence and yet is ‘lost’ or ‘fallen from’ as a result of inner conflicted sense of self.

The ‘sinner’ or conflicted guilt-driven self, judges itself unworthy of love’s wholeness as a radiance or joy of being and seeks to escape the ‘punishment’ or consequence by partial sacrifice. This may be displacement onto others, to conditions or to one’s body.

The ‘religion’ of denial and sacrifice of true being, has become hard-wired as the primary defence by which to persist a sense of power ‘over’ life rather than ‘lose’ such a sense of self to conflicted fears given power by the very act of attempting escape.

True power of life operates resonance of communication and synchronicity – but when fear attempts to gain power over the feared – or power to hide from fear – the sacrifice of true witness and communication is fed to support a ‘narrative control’ identity, of a split-mind of masking presentations of shifting identities.

The forms change but the underlying conflicts of a breakdown in communication remains unchanged, un-addressed, un-owned and unhealed.

Covering inner conflicts with forms of presented displacement allows a dissociated identity to play out until the failure of such forms to keep the conflict from awareness brings either more form-shifting and sacrifice or an awakening responsibility at the level of cause – rather than identity in symptom-struggle.

The complexity of entanglement in false thinking cannot be overstated. I have essayed a sketch of what I notice by its symptoms and by the revealed underlying patterns of identification and belief with which they are associated.

One of the aspects of sacrifice as ‘escape’ is that of a death wish – and this includes the desire to eradicate the hated or rejected – as the Others – as a way of denying such hate within.

The ‘Trojan’ deceit hides in one of the foundations of ‘religious scientism’ – as the wish to be the bringer of light and power over evil and darkness – in this case ‘infectious disease’. Self-specialness is corrupted – for the natural response of answering a call for help is not self-conscious or contrived.

True power undoes corruption and restores communication. But in current human terms, this feels more like relinquishing of what we assign as power so as to fully align in the true of our being. This demands no sacrifice of what we are to be Itself – and witness through us. Yet an investment in power will ‘see’ only threat to itself and break off communication, support and healing so as to play out its version of dominion and defiance.

(In response to SD in the comments):

I believe you are almost certainly correct. There are negative synergies or pathways of destructive influence where it is hard to assign total responsibility to one event or agent.

I have read in various sources that ‘polio’ persisted but generally under other diagnosis – because ‘polio has been eradicated by vaccines’ and so any occurrence must be ‘something else’ – excepting in countries denied development who are felt to benefit from our ‘AID”.

Whereas many in the ranks believe their cause – I cannot escape the conclusion that those at the top are aware of the destructive effects of their actions, products and services, such as to be either callous to the extreme or intentionally working destruction.

I generally address the underlying psyche – because unrecognized hate operates negative pathways of thought and social structure in much the same way as our world reflects in tangible materiality.

Vaccine Religion

Constructs within Consciousness

In Response to: CIA Consciousness – by Jon Rappoport

To what degree is the ‘CIA” (and similar reflections) operating a faithful feedback loop to your own attempt to define and control ‘consciousness’ – which then results in some form of construct within Consciousness – through which your experience of being – is primed through such definitions as ‘control’ and its flip-side of ‘controlled’?

Consciousness is a focusing within IDEA that includes the capacity to split focus within conflicting Idea. Whereas the recognition of being through Idea, operates expansion, the non-recognition of being within self-conflicting concept, operates limitation and loss.

The non-recognition of being is the result of WANTING to see something ELSE and believing your own distortions true. Just as the presumption of ‘knowing’ blocks the direct knowing of a truly Creative Relationship.

The psy-op IS the computer-program invoked to support and maintain a false sense of self OVER and AGAINST all else. Any investment and allegiance to such a focus generates its own sense of necessity in maintaining and defending such focus – as if one’s personal survival.

The mind being used as a defence against truth is a conceit or self-deceit – but that does not change the innate FUNCTION of what Mind Is – which is to attend or give focus to RECOGNITION of worth. If we elect to give worth to that which is unworthy of our true being – then we give support and attraction to what we don’t want while professing to be opposing or countering it.

Definitions and beliefs operate ‘reality-as-perceived’ while we operate within their operating system rather than relaxing from such entanglement to notice from the Field Awareness of being Itself.

At some level – if the entanglements are being persisted in rather than resolved back to their true desire – then they represent the current choice as to how to experience All That Is – though such filters as bring exactly such experience and alignment.

Illuminating the mechanism of the construct within Consciousness can awaken the stirring of Consciousness in others by resonance, of invitation and alignment. But attempting to use guilt and blame to leverage others into ‘awakening’ teaches they are NOT free to simply accept and align through their own recognition. Teaching UNfreedom as a means to ‘gaining freedom’ is the nature of the trap – and not the way to create out of an already freedom. Entanglement in ‘changing others’ works against a true witness – as if to grow ‘mindshare’ is to become more real.

If capital C Consciousness is given true witness – rather than dealing in conceptual references of reduced or fragmented sub-sets – then the quality of knowing one’s existence expands to a whole You-niverse of what might be called a subtler communication of Felt Being. The trade of Soul-awareness for a world in which to play out a sense of struggle that grows from the loss of true power by investment in the false – is not made in the past – but can be un-covered as a present choice operating – and thus a different choice remains available – to you, the chooser.

Constructs within Consciousness